What all begins in June? Just changes and progress, to hopefully get back on our feet, financially, physically, emotionally, mentally (haha, just thought I would throw that in to see if you were paying attention). June has been good so far, a whole 3 days into it. Brayden has his summer planned out, NETSYS camp, VBS and Utah to see his brother, mentor, best friend, hero and his brand spankin' new sister in law! Today was the last day of school and we celebrated by going to Brayden's favorite place to eat, Yen Jing. Then I came home to a clean kitchen and living room, all courtesy of Brayden. What an awesome kiddo!
Struggle as we might, my fortune cookie read, "You deserve respect and will eventually get it." Not that is a positive twist on my life. working on plans to better our life. I don't want Brayden to look back and say, "what did we do when I was a teenager?" We have always gone on trips and vacations but the last 4 years have been very lacking in that department. I want to see things with Brayden just like we did with Zach when he was younger.
We have been looking at smaller houses (smaller payments too) and it is SO overwhelming, to say the least. But we have had some positive finds lately too!
My physical being is in hopes of a rework. I returned to Weight Watchers Tuesday after being gone from there for 2 1/2 years. I was worried, worried that I worked hard to lose 70 lbs. and might have gained it back. I was no where near the clothes that I wore back then with size tags of 3X and 4X. When I got on the scales, they said I had gained back 10 of the 70 lbs. that I lost. I was very happy. I have tried to keep in the path with my food choices and if I could get more mobile, I could really lose. I had my busted swollen leg and my brace on my leg and I was only recording 10 lbs. That made me happy, and pleased with the results.
After Sunday gracefulness on my part, my knee has hurt like no other pain. I have to bear it, there is no other choice. I am not big on narcotic pain medications, because if I numb the pain, I will risk hurting my knee further. I don't like to be immobilized, I don't like to be dependent on another, and I don't like being embarrassed by all this apparatus that I was given to stabilize my knee until I can see a specialist. Well, tomorrow is the day at 10 AM. I have asked everyone I know to give me their opinion on the surgeon. Probably 99% are good, and the dis-satisfied were personality conflicts. I am looking forward to getting straight forward answers and I hope I get them. I am ready! I am ready to get on with my life! I am ready to be able to move without pain and yes, I am ready to have the surgery if need be. Life is too short to sit in the chair and watch it pass by when I can do something about it!
Work is going to be getting into high overdrive with the summer's activities! Always a busy time! ALWAYS a great time. VBS is proving to be a wonderful week this year! I am excited about VBS! HAHA!
It has been very nice to have my work complimented. I don't expect it and when it comes, it is so very nice. I love to encourage and compliment others and never expect it from others. If I don't expect it, I won't be disappointed. Someone I think highly of has pointed out some things about me that I need to change. And I am making a mental point to work on that, because it makes sense. I could have never imagined that one person could make me think on a different level, about myself and the way 'I have always done or thought." The way it always was/is doesn't mean it is right or that there is not a better way.
I am ready to get this show on the road and get my life back, the active, fun loving life back. I want to be able to run from the water guns and nerf blasters. And chase my husband where ever I want to. I love the line in "Sweet Home Alabama" where he says, "what chu wanna marry me for anyway?" and she says. "so, I can kiss you anytime I want to." I love it. Kissing is the most wonderful thing.
